My Face for the World to See (Part II):
The Diary of Sherilyn Connelly
a fiction


March 1 - 10, 2003

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Monday, 10 March 2003 (the spider now sucks out the victim)
sometime after midnight


We saw Gus Van Sant's Gerry tonight. It's about a couple of guys, both named Gerry, who get lost in the desert. Very little happens; most scenes are just of them walking. I'm not sure exactly how I feel about it. If nothing else, I'd like to think of myself as a minimalist, and if I expect anyone to sit through a half-hour of my cats sleeping, then I shouldn't shy away from similarly challenging material. I'm glad I saw it, and am grateful I had the opportunity to see it during its extremely limited theatrical run—why live in San Francisco if you're not going to take advantage of this sort of thing?—especially since it was in one of the screening rooms at the Opera Plaza, not the AMC 1000 down the street, so the audience was respectful. Confused and befuddled, and a few people fell asleep (which is not inappropriate;in all seriousness, it would be a good movie to doze to), but they didn't laugh, heckle or walk out like multiplex audiences did at Soderbergh's remake of Solaris.

It certainly isn't a movie I'd recommend to someone unless I knew their tastes were extremely similar to mine, and probably not even then. Maddy didn't know anything about it going in, and says she still trusts my taste in movies. Kinda like how Oscar still trusts me even though I occasionally step on his tail. He knows I didn't mean to hurt him.

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Sunday, 9 March 2003 (his artwork is done)
7:49pm


Maddy and I just said "'Ptooey!' it says" in unison. It was very odd.

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Saturday, 8 March 2003 (when the cocoon is finished the spider watches the victim)
7:26pm


Wanting to get out of the house and not really having any better ideas, Maddy and I went to Good Vibrations on Valencia this afternoon. We rented some pr0n—a vampire-themed movie, and Sugar High, Glitter City, which features Rocco's song "Candyass"—and I talked myself out of a Good Vibrations baby tee. Maddy was unable to resist a soft pack, though. I think Lynnee's rubbing off on her.

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Friday, 7 March 2003 ((meaning the spider wraps the victim in plastic))
7:03pm


I spent most of the day at Vale's, working on his site and doing other odd things around the house. Some took advantage of the fact that I know my way around Windows, and others that I'm tall. (My curse.) I also went on a mission to get lunch, which involved going to an Indian restaurant and loading up a to-go container with enough food for three people. Vale assured me that it was very punk rock. And, yes, he paid for it.

When I was reading at K'vetch on Sunday, I noticed a typo in my chapbook which had escaped me before—an extraneous word, not a misspelling—and I discovered another one today. Vale tells me that every one of his books (with the possible exception of J.G. Ballard's The Atrocity Exhibition, but only because it hasn't been found yet) has typos that he didn't find until after they released. It makes me feel a little better about my own sloppiness.

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Thursday, 6 March 2003 (now the spider cocoons the victim)
7:29pm


A new employee at Access San Francisco told me that when people find out he works at Channel 29, he often hears, "Oh! The channel with the cat show?" I haven't decided if I believe him or not.

According to the IMDB, the new John Travolta movie has four executive producers, four regular producers and four co-producers. With that many people producing it, it must be good.

In a dream the other night, I wanted to audition for a role in a Francis Ford Coppola movie, but as is often the case in my dreams it never quite happened. Another time I was playing Ophelia, which I've always wanted to do. (Freudian? Naaaaah.)

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Wednesday, 5 March 2003 (the spider sets him in the desired position)
sometime after midnight


Of course, even municipal cheerleaders such as us need to get away once in a while, so we went to Santa Cruz this afternoon. The weather here in town was nice, and it was ruminated that it's probably just as nice if not nicer in Santa Cruz, not to mention the Farmer's Market is on Wednesdays and Pink Godzilla is open every day, so within an hour we found ourselves heading south on Highway 1, feeling rather proud of ourselves for being all spontaneous-like. We got some good stuff at the Farmer's Market, Pink Godzilla is still the best sushi that isn't less than a half-hour away, and the arcades at the Boardwalk remain open in the off-season. So all was good.

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Tuesday, 4 March 2003 (the spider now takes the victim to undress him)
9:50pm


Lydia Lunch read at Adobe Books tonight, along with Michelle and Kirk Read. Things were said regarding our nation's leaders and policies which would probably be considered unpatriotic at best and subversive at worst, mostly from Lydia. I love that I live in a place where things like that can be said—and I don't mean America in general, 'cuz, y'know, that ain't the case. Hooray for my horrid little cesspool of a City. (I'm told by people much smarter than me that this place sucks, so what do I know?)

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Monday, 3 March 2003 (the victim is without will from this moment on)
11:01am


I sold a chapbook at K'vetch last night. The rest, I gave away. I'm not very good at selling.

More spontaneously, I gave away a CD. There was someone wearing a Wilco t-shirt, and I liked what she read, so I gave her the disc of Yankee Hotel Foxtrot demos which I happened to have in the car. (It's from mp3, so I can make myself another one.) She appreciated it.

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Sunday, 2 March 2003 (the spider has to paralyze the victim)
10:27am


My hair is in dire need of a trim and a coloring. What it does not need is to be purple, like the girl sitting a few rows ahead of me at Spanganga on Thursday. It doesn't need that at all, nor is it what will make me feel better about myself.

Steven and Miiyu recently returned from Europe, and we went to a party at their place in Berkeley Friday night. He's finished the Sexgoblins of both Maddy and I, and he'll be taking them to New York soon for his first solo art show. Cool.

Either I didn't get clocked, or those who did were very polite and understood proper pronoun usage. At one point I listened to some people have a discussion about transsexuals and heard some things which, while not offensive or hateful, probably wouldn't have been said had they realized there was one in the room. I didn't have anything to add to the conversation.

There was a girl there whom at first I thought was a tranny. She wasn't tall or particularly masculine, and I'm not really sure why my radar went off. (False positives do happen.) She didn't quite fit the societal beauty standard, but she wasn't unpleasant to look at, either. She just exuded a...naturalness which, in turn, made me feel exceedingly large and unnatural and unwieldy. It's okay, though. She didn't know she was doing it.

Sometimes I think words fail me. Then I realize words had no obligation to me in the first place.

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Saturday, 1 March 2003 (every spider needs at least one victim)
sometime after midnight


Note to self: the punk rock DIY vibe means not stressing out too much if the staples aren't always on the crease. Perfection is neither expected nor possible.

As we were stapling away, I mentioned that I'm unemployed, and Alvin said his book store is hiring. Unfortunately, they're looking for someone with former experience in a book store, and working at video stores doesn't count. Alas.

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